Thursday, August 23, 2012

A Step In The Right Direction


If you happen to read my update from a few days ago you know that I came down with a bad virus last Friday and was unable to attend tryouts. This was very, very hard for me as I had worked my hardest all summer to be ready for this week. I felt like my dream had been taken away from me. I had assumed that if I did not attend tryouts that there was no way I could make a team. My parents tried to get me to write an email to the coach but I did not feel well at the time so I told them no. later that night I couldn’t sleep and was up on Twitter, Yay for social media!, someone encouraged me to send an email, so in the morning I asked my parents to write an email. I expected to get a response saying that there was nothing that could be done but yesterday I got good news. The coached emailed me back and said I was not the only one in this position and that she would be willing to let me try out on a few different teams. Wow, was I happy! During this I also got a call back from the doctor. She said everything on my blood test looked normal except for the fact that I am extremely vitamin D deficient. I am now on a supplement for this which I have to take once a week and then go back to the doctor in two months for a checkup. One symptom of this is bone and muscle pain. I get this in my upper arms, legs, hips and calves. Hopefully this will go away soon though as it won’t be very easy to play soccer like this. ANA testing was also done to check for Lupus, a disease my mom has since she was 18. That came back for the most part normal. The average numbers for kids my age is 6 and mine was 38. Although it does have to be somewhere around 300 to be declared Lupus so I’ll have that checked regularly from now on. Today I also started to feel a lot better from the virus I’ve had for a week now so I seem to be improving.  

Once again things have seemed to work themselves out! I expect to be on JV2 again this year mainly because of my fitness right now also knowing that if you perform well you can be moved up teams. While it is a team for mostly freshman and sophomore, if I can make it I won’t be the only junior. Once I see where I am and am on a team, hopefully sometime next week, I look forward to being a leader on the team because of the fact that I will be one of the oldest. I also look forward to just playing the game again. Today was the last day of tryouts and I wanted so bad to be out there playing, that’s all I could think about! Hopefully come Monday I will be back playing soccer.  See, I told you I would find a way to keep playing the beautiful game. J              
- Never Give Up   

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Sometimes Life's Just Not Fair


Quick update.

Monday was supposed to be the first day of tryouts for me but with all the crazy stuff that’s happen to me lately I wasn’t really surprised when that didn’t happen. On Friday I went to a university of Portland women’s soccer game. I felt fatigued as usual, or at least the usual since mono, but also came down with other symptoms which I thought was just a cold. Come Saturday morning and I could barely get out of bed. Wasn’t the flu either and it got worse on Sunday. Headaches, nausea, fevers, dizziness, swollen lymph nodes, body aches covering 95% of my body. And I worked hard all summer to get where I was before Friday. I was almost fully fit and felt like I could make it. Then this happened. That’s life I guess.  Monday my parents tried to force me to tryouts but I knew that my body could not take it. I would have collapsed within 5 minutes of running. Then the guilt sunk in when my dad accused me of giving up and not caring. I’ve always told myself never to give up and right then I felt like I was giving up. Anyways I did end up going to the doctor Monday night and had blood drawn for different tests. The doctor said it might just me that I have a really weak immune system and caught a virus which brought back the mono symptoms. Another possibility is anemia. I was also test for a few other things including autoimmune diseases just to be safe. I’m pretty devastated right now to say the least. Of all the times this could happen. I honestly just want to feel better at this point. One of the things that scare me is the amount of weight I’ve lost in the past 5 days. I’ve lost 7 pounds in 5 days. Right now I think figuring out my health and school, which starts in less than 2 weeks, is more important than playing soccer. That’s pretty tough for me to say. As far as playing soccer it’s still a possibility I just am not sure they want me. I’m sure not giving up at all though. I could be happy if I was given a team manager spot on JV2 at this point. It’s still being involved with the game I love. I thought you were supposed to be rewarded for hard work. It still hurts to talk about this right now. I don’t know if anything I just wrote made any sense to anybody but I need to figure out what’s going on health wise, hopefully it’s a virus I’ll get over soon! Then hopefully I can get back to the game of soccer. I'll update soon in more detail. I haven’t given up yet people! I will play soccer by the end of this year. No matter what it takes. I believe I will! Something was taken away from me and now I just have to fight to get it back. I need some rest first. I haven’t slept in 36 hours…      

-      Never give up.